believe in people

In this life, we meet so many people.
It's not fair to split them in good and bad as it all depends on the moment when we meet them. What they are going thru at that moment and how we are interacting with their unhealed pain. Also, we cannot split them by looking at their souls as beautiful and ugly as again it all depends on the moment when we meet them. What they are going thru at that moment and how we are interacting with their gathered fears.

I changed so many groups of friends, people that I loved and I gave them every piece of me. I did some stupid shit in my life but they were my friends, my second family. I still care for them but from distance, I am still happy for the good things that are happening in their lives, I am still sad that some of them never passed over their thug condition. I realized with pain that our friendship wasn't good not only for me but for all of us. I was the bigger person and left.
All thru time called me cold and that I never valued my friends that's why it was easy for me to move away and forget them. People that have their childhood friends next to them or at least this is what they think. It wasn't easy for me as those people were my family but we weren't just going the same way in life, there were no more lessons to learn from each other, we couldn't understand each other any longer. I distanced myself from people that I cannot respect anymore and I cannot be condemned for that. Are you still friends with your school friends? but are they really your friends? do you help each other to grow? can you still advise each other when you're going thru a rough patch? I always said that I need around you people that you can share your joy sorrow with, people that you respect, people that help you stay on your path. I am lucky, I have my group of friends that I didn't even know 10 years ago and i would do anything for them, and they would do I think the same for me. We are good for each other at this point in time, who knows in the future. But you know why? because we can talk, we can be honest, we can tell each other that we are stupid but at the same time we understand that each one has to do its share of mistakes and that is our responsibility to be there all the way and at the end of the trip to catch them in case they fall or to clap for them if they succeed. This is friendship not memories since we were kids.

I loved a few times in my life and every time my trust was broken but I am not hating those persons, I don't think that they have ugly souls and that they are bad persons. Even after all these years I have only but respect for all of them. As I paid attention to them as a full personality with their past, their fears, and their monsters. I understood that when we met they were at a certain point in life when their demons were much stronger. I always said that you need to be there, invest and give your all, the worst thing that can happen is that you will suffer and trust me you will not die. Some are in it for the count of bodies, count of broken souls because they think that this is how they will heal themselves. Some people are just cowards and they are hurting people because of their fear to let them go because what if they are the ones and they will miss it. Some people are keeping their distance because they are scared because they cannot figure out if that person is the one or not so they become uncertain. Nothing in life is sure, trust me, I really know this shit. Be a good person, give your all and see what happens, only then you can at least say that you tried. Don't cheat and if you cheat tell the other don't keep them alongside for your own selfish fears. Always take responsibility for your actions. Give your all, be there, love with your every atom, the worst thing that can happen is that you will suffer.

I still believe in people, I still choose to see the good in them. And if they disappoint me I am sure they have their reasons. Harder is the burden of the one that realizes he lost a good friend or a love because of their fears then the burden of the one that offers everything. And if they don't realize, well it's even better because we all have the right in this life to be happy.
I believe that in this life you meet some friends at a certain point in life that you will have for a long time, possibly till the end because you share some weird profound things, honesty, and care.
I believe that in this life you meet only once your soulmate, your ride or die, partner and you have to do anything in your power to become better next to that person. Show that person how much you love her/him, cry in front of her/him, be you, be open. Try your best not to lose them and if you do don't despair somehow I am sure that life goes on. How do you recognize this person? you will know, you will just know.

Allow yourself to be surprised every day, good or bad, doesn't matter, allow it and appreciate the surprise. That's how you became who you are today, not by knowing in advance what's to come but by facing the unknown.