wake up

The title should have been, stop being stupid or stop being an asshole or stop being a shitty person or stop pretending or so many other options and not that they would have been too offensive but they would have narrowed down the post objective.

This is like so personal as in the last period people made sure to step on my nerves or better said disappointed me. And yes I know that you need to lower your expectations so you don't get disappointed but if I lower the expectations for the society, for the people around me than I automatically lower them for me and this means that I will never ever grow beyond this point and that's a big NO.

COVID - conspiracy

Conspiracy? really, my question is so simple, to whose benefit?

5G 

We have an idiot in RO that started with a video of an old tree look-alike structure that is like 15 years old before we even had 3G, and he screams look people this is how they are hiding the 5G antennas, look what they are doing this is how they give us radiations and COVID, are you serious? I remember a few years ago when 4G appeared some stupid people tried a campaign like this and people were rejecting the antenna mounting on their blocks because of the radiation that was given them cancer. Pointless to say that they were so stupid that they didn't even bother to understand the umbrella concept of coverage but then again. I understood at that point that a greater purpose for a stupid campaign like this was to increase the price for which you were renting/selling the space towards mobile operators to place their antennas. Funny thing is that young people were not so involved in this shit because guys were so happy that they will be able to see faster the pictures that girls were taken of their ass and boobs and uploading on social media. Happy porn world everybody. Now at 5G a lot of people comment.

Wearing the mask

The same idiot as before has a campaign "take down the mask, raise your hearts" in which he claims that is his right not to wear a mask that he wants to be free to speak and love. The bad thing is that he is a public person and he should be more responsible around social issues and state-imposed rules and not to encourage people towards anarchy. 

Besides him are the idiots who think that that small metal piece that you have in your mask in order to take the shape of your noes is actually a chip to monitor you all around. I bet that the same idiots who believe this have their location turned on every time at their mobile phones, but hey that's ok. I even read on FB that an idiot removed the metal piece and replaced it with a piece of hooly rope so now he is not followed anymore and he is also protected by God. Can you believe that?

I don't even want to enter in the debate around the debate that they cannot breathe with their mask on, as I will only repeat the memes around this and maybe add some more ideas.

Ooooooo and cover your fucking nose also, unless is too big and doesn't fit and in this case, you are ugly as fuck and should wear a brown paper bag on your head just not to give us the rest nightmares.

When I posted about the first idiot that he is not ok and that we should stop making stupid people famous I got a huge amount of hate and lost a bunch of followers on Instagram. So when I am saying that they are many and when I will draw my conclusion later on you will understand why.

Distance

No dude, who needs distance? it's ok to lick my neck while we stay in line at the supermarket, it's ok to listen to my conversations while I am at a terrace, it's ok to have your sunbed next to mine - maybe we even cuddle later, it's ok in the club to step on my shoes, it's ok in the club for you to rub your hard dick off my ass or my girls' ass just because you saw a hottie on the other side of the bar. YES totally OK, I am the weird one. If we would have respected some common sense rules everything would still work as normal but no you want to be a bunch of uneducated idiots, that I am not gonna call monkeys because i would bring an offense to the monkeys.

Cover-up Child Trafficking

We are all social worried and responsible now but for my sick curiosity did you worry about this topic before now or are you just an easy prey to conspiracy theories. Because if you are serious about this stop promoting fake news and start taking actions. start promoting and supporting organizations that are actually doing something for these kids.

UNICEF just released a couple of days something very worrying: "An additional 6.7 million children under the age of five could suffer from wasting – and therefore become dangerously undernourished – in 2020 as a result of the socio-economic impact of the COVID-19 pandemic"

If people are so worried about this I would have been so happy to repost and support them because this is a serious matter "Every 30 seconds a child is trafficked either for sex, for slavery, or even organ harvesting"  when you are taking your information from credible sources which don't claim that pandemic doesn't exist. Yesterday I would have jumped from my bed if I saw at least one person posting that July 30 is officially World Day Against Trafficking in Persons. This shit is serious but looks for resources on credible resources and organizations that are actually doing something to help them. Support these organizations, really get involved. Serious organizations will not trow bullshit facts that COVID is an invention to distract people from these issues. No, no, no, one is not less important than the other, none should be ignored or taken lightly. Choose your fights, choose where you put your energy but don't minimize the other issues that are on this planet. 

https://www.unicef.org/

https://www.notforsalecampaign.org/

https://www.un.org/en/

Again came the second round of hate and unfollow unfriend when I dared to repost something in which it was said that no sooner than two weeks we will all know directly someone that has COVID 19. How dare I state the obvious?

Vaccination-Bill Gates

A few years ago a not so smart lady in RO started saying that we should no longer vaccinate our babies. Now people found one obscure insta and fb pages truncated segments from Bill Gates interview from a couple of years ago from which they are misled to understand that they shouldn't vaccinate as Bill himself will not do it. The conspiration goes deeper and they launched the virus so that they will launch a vaccine for it and we will all be so scared that we are going to take it but inside will be a hidden cheap thru which Bill will now our every move. Idiots, there is no need for that, you already share your location or if you have the iPhone I bet you never read the full terms and conditions thru which you literally agreed to share everything with them. Cool, you are so smart, I am amazed. And the top of Bill's conspiracy is that with those remote thermo scanners that they have at the entrance in supermarkets they actually remotely introduce a chip in you. Wow, like really wow, can you be more idiot than that? No chance, MAX level reached.

Here i would add one small stupid suggestion from my side: SEARCH and LOOK at the fool interview. Or if you are too lazy he promised that if you pay for all the windows versions that you stalled he will not control your mind with his chip, anyway he has nothing to control, ups.

Some time ago somebody told me that I am too vocal with my opinions and although I started controlling myself, this week was fucked up for me and still is somehow. And yes I am beyond outraged about what I see around me concerning this topic. Don't think even for one second that I respected all the rules but I tried my best and encouraged others to do so also.

Coming back to my week, well it was not so fun to wake up Monday morning with a phone call from your parents that a colleague of theirs has been tested positive. I cannot even put in words everything that I felt, scared doesn't even comprehend what was going on in my mind and heart. I did the responsible thing and announced all the persons that I got in contact with. Massive disappointment to see that although all of them were close ones to some of them this didn't mean anything and they didn't even bother to ask me how they feel, but then again it's my problem not theirs so I got over it fast enough. On Tuesday morning they took the test and I was already losing it mentally like really losing it. By night time I was starting to feel really bad reaching Wednesday afternoon with most of the symptoms. The only thing I was able to tell myself at that point was that this cannot be possible. On my way to the testing center while in my mind was an entire storm and I was so outraged I reposted that thing that we will all know somebody with COVID in the next 2 weeks. My mother called to tell me that their results came NEGATIVE, with her voice shaking, she was crying, she was relieved, the type of scare called close to death, that's how her voice sounded. I was such a fucking coward and I didn't have the courage to tell her that I was not feeling well and I was on my way to test myself. Just to understand my panic more, I am in one of the risk classes also. While waiting for my turn I again did the responsible thing and announced everybody that my parents' results came out negative but I am about to test myself as I don't feel too good experiencing a big part of the symptoms. Here maybe I managed to move a muscle or to but not enough from some of them to call me in the evening to see how I feel. The testing is awful they really go with those sticks deep like really deep :(. On my way back home checked my phone just to see the wave of hate because I dared to post what I posted and of course the unfriend, unfollow, and so on. I didn't sleep that night, scared so fucking scared, I just stayed in bed with all the noise in my head, I managed to close my eyes like for 5-10 minutes. The morning caught me somehow at peace, looked at my phone, and the result ... still not there. Disappointed by some of the messages I've found and that from some people i didn't find anything. One of my best friends called me to tell me that he checked and the result was negative. Again announced everybody. As I still didn't feel good I had a virtual consultation with my doctor and she told me that if I don't recover by Sunday I should call the ambulance and retake the test. Imagine getting a punch in the chest that simply takes your breath away, that's how I felt. Now I am at home and I feel a bit better but I am still scared. This shit is fucking real people. 

At the end of the day, I realized that if some of us will escape it for sure there is little to no hope for us as a race. We lack EMPATHY, we are SELFISH, most of us don't care about the others anymore, about the close ones, about the ones we say we love or we loved at a certain point.

We will die because of our ignorance, we will die because we are stupid, we will die because we think only about ourselves. A couple of months ago I was trying to explain to a few people that the economic crisis will be bad and their answer was that they don't care because they work for big multinational companies and they are ok, others told me that heir parents will help them. The level of ignorance cannot be put into words. In all these months both my parents almost lost their jobs, I am on limited time contract job till this autumn and trying to prepare myself and to find a new job I tried to use social media and asked for some help with my resume; from over 20 HR people that follow me and saw my insta story not even one offered to help. This the point where we are, so interested in what people are doing but not willing to lend a helping hand. It's funny how we close our box and think that nothing can touch us, it's funny how we don't pay attention to those we know, it's funny how we ignore the ones we don't know, we are a JOKE. If somebody close is happy we forgot how to be happy for them. If somebody is in love and we are not, we are no longer able to celebrate that love. If somebody is going thru a break-up we just keep silent or we advise directly to move on, we no longer want to analyze a bit and try to give a piece of advice that might save that relationship or might ease that heart. We are no longer willing to change for the ones around us, to become better in exchange we offer the stupid excuse this is who I am and people have to accept me this way. We no longer walk down the street and stop to listen to the music and toss a coin maybe, we just walk away. We no longer take a walk in the park and throw some bread crumbs at the birds, we prefer to drive around the city. The list is so long and so sad of things that we no longer do for the right reasons or we stopped doing them because it's not cool. We are so STUPID.

Do I still believe in humanity? maybe a bit because I know some people in which I saw empathy as this what defines us as humans but i really doubt it that a handful of people will be able to keep us all on the floating line away from becoming NOTHING.

Please, WAKE UP. Love, apologize, cry, laugh, scream, feel, be human.

"real" is scary

Welcome to today, welcome to 21 st century, welcome to 2020, welcome to a moment where we don't like real anymore.

We are fake, we want fake, we cannot handle real, real is scary. Our frustrated anxious minds can no longer handle real and normal.

20 years ago in prime time news, you were seeing everything that is happening around the world. You were informed of conflict zones, of people that fight hunger, people that fight poverty, people that fight oppressive regimes. Today they show you only what is local and from external, they show you something that they found on youtube of turtle storming the streets of god knows what forgotten village in Australia. Haha, everything is wonderful, everything is peachy and nothing bad is happening. We reached a point where we no longer care bout what is happening around us. The sad part is that even if they would come back to their old constructive habits our minds can no longer handle reality. We all want to see fairytales and live real-life fairytales. Where the fuck is the reality? Why do we isolate ourselves in our stupid ignorant bubbles?

We reached an impossible level of ignorance. A few months ago the pandemic of COVID 19 was declared and everybody got scared and respected the measures. A low number of cases with responsible people. Today, a couple of months later, the number of cases is huge and nobody gives a fuck anymore. The virus is not to blame but our stupid ignorance is. We have stupid people conducting campaigns against the law for us not to wear the masks and somehow there are a lot of stupid people that support them. I am scared that people support anarchy, maybe tomorrow we will have a crazy person that will say that raping women is ok and I bet you that a lot of stupid people will support that cause also. We reached a stage of moral cancer. People don't know the main principle of democracy, your freedom ends when you overstep my freedom. Think about it. 

The situation is getting worse every day but we all choose to ignore it as shit is getting too real and we cannot handle this level of reality, we want our fairytale back.

Everybody wants better and more but nobody wants to work their asses a bit for that. If the easy way appears without hesitation we will choose it without thinking about the consequences. You see girls going on lavish trips, wearing expensive clothes and so on. You want that? work, find somebody to whom you can build and reach that level or you can choose the old guy that will take you there and he will never appear in your pictures so nobody knows. You are lying to yourself, stop selling your soul for a picture in paradise. You want to enter that club? wait till you can enter there because of you, never accept to be the accessory of a guy that doesn't give a fuck what are you thinking about when you go to sleep. As for the guys I cannot even understand how you can be satisfied with yourself knowing that due to your money, not your mind, not your soul, some chicks prefer to stay with you. When the money goes, when the night falls, what then?

But weel hell, who am I to judge. Why accept reality when you have an easy way towards a fake fairytale. Remember that in all fairytales there was some drama towards the candy cane house, that's why it was so sweet because it didn't come easy.

Nobody wants a meaningful connection anymore as it is to hard to handle, we provide fake we want fake. We judge by the cover and that consumes our soul day by day. I honestly think that this represents the end of our sate as human beings. We buy expensive clothes not because of the quality but because of the brand how it makes us look socially. We buy expensive second-hand cars that we cannot afford to maintain just to make a statement about our social position. It's funny how everybody apparently feels ok knowing that under those expensive clothes they wear a cheap piece of underwear and that's not ok. It's funny how everybody feels ok behind the wheel of an expensive car knowing that they cannot afford to have a full tank of gas. Hilarious, i am telling you. Everybody screams that they want something real but they offer fake and they are attracted to fake.

Conversations on first dates are no longer about who you are as a person and what do you want from life from the future. Now people are talking about what they have where they've been and what they want from the other in material terms. Guys are no longer offering a flower on the first date because it doesn't matter anymore. Girls are more impressed if you pick them up with your car instead of paying attention to the small gestures that make a man. Stability and loyalty is now judged by what you have and offer, it's no longer being evaluated by how much are you willing to work and sacrifice for the other. Everybody uses the line" this is me, take it or leave it, I'm not changing". Wake the fuck up! Be real! if you care for somebody you will become a better person for you and for that person. We become better together. Alone nobody became better. Stop being toxic and complaining that other people are toxic. Toxic with toxic become nontoxic, change the mindset, stop expecting, and start giving.

During the isolation period everybody dramatized the situations that couples were allegedly going thru. WTF? they were forced to communicate and pay attention to the other away from the normal routine. Is that bad? Nobody but nobody didn't talk about the ones that lonely ones, that's were the drama actually was. But it became normal to make a drama out of what should be normal and it is real. People love, people fight, people get back together, people break up. That's real!

We are beyond fucked beyond hope. We are too scared of REAL, we offer FAKE and we are looking for FAKE while we lie to ourselves and the others that we are REAL and we want REAL.

6th lesson: expectations

This lesson is called expectations when in fact it is about honesty. Because I think that honesty leads to real expectations while lies lead to false expectations and later on disappointments.

That's life and it happens but what if people would really want to make the world a better place someday and they would work also on how they treat each other?

This one will be more about relationships. And the first thing that has to said here is that people lie and they lie and they lie because of their insecurities and fucked up issues that they refuse to fix by visiting a therapist.

According to a study, in our days, about 60% of women search and find their next partner while being in the current relationship. WTF? while the same thing happens with only about 25% of the men. Like seriously, WTF? 

Both numbers are bad and nobody should do this as it sucks big time and maybe we should try and treat each other with respect not by cheating because newsflash that's how it is called, cheating.

The expectation is that you meet somebody who is single just like you and that you like each other and you start a relationship. Reality is that they are already in another relationship and you are for a while the 3rd person in that relationship until she/he convinces that you are better so they remain with you. Double cheating alert! 

I myself was the 3rd one a few times and every time I founded out about it and tried to confront the person but the discussion transformed into a drama with accusations that I have a bad opinion about them, no shit? Some recognized with apologies and we tried but I should have known that one day I will be in the poor bastard position and I too will be replaced while being there. Others never recognized and I remained with a hunch but time proved me that I was right. Because that's what people do, when confronted with the truth they either run they either attack but they almost never admit.

This is no reason to lose faith in people, you just have to be more cautious around who do you let inside your heart. This is a reason for you to be a better person and never do this shit just because you are insecure. Insecurities can be treated and must be in order to hurt good people.

When you enter a relationship you expect that it will be a partnership and that you are heading towards building something together. Reality is that people have their own agenda and just a few are the people who will be honest about theirs. The rest of them will stay there following their own selfish agenda while you will try to follow a common agenda. You will think about the next vacation together, they will think about their next weekend escape with their friends. 

First of all, you need to be true to yourself and if you feel that the other person doesn't fit your future plans or you don't see future plans with them just say so. Be honest about what you want from them, don't waste anybody's time as time is the most valuable present that somebody can ever give you.

I tried all my life to figure this shit out as soon as possible in order not to hurt anybody while others weren't able to give me the same respect. You can only realize what you think and feel and want. It sucks that you cannot know what the other is thinking and this where the frustration appears as you will work for the common good and the other will work for hers/his personal good. Because you see when you get to be in love you will fail in seeing some things and even if you see them you will start inventing excuses for the other just for you to feel better with you. Wake up!!! When it will actually end you will see that not love and honesty were what they were looking for but financial stability and fun and you majestically failed in offering that. The problem with this type of thinking is that is very often present at women and if our mothers would have thought like this then we would have never existed.

Towards the end of a relationship brings the game to a totally different level. It sucks because this end sometimes it can be short and that perfect while some other time it can take weeks, months, or even years. It's all about signs and how you see them. It is psychologically proven that we will have a tendency of causing the other of exactly what we are doing. The other will accuse you of talking with other persons and if you know that this isn't true and you want to prove this they will still not believe you because of their own fears. If you will try to ask the same question in return they will get offended because this is what they are doing. The other will accuse of cheating right when they are cheating because it's easier to find the fault in the other that to admit that you are the one that is having a shitty behavior. 

The expectation is that your partner, the person you love, shares the same principles and if something like this will ever occur they will come right to you and apologize or they will end the relationship as they don't want to hurt you. The reality is that nobody will come up front with something like this as they are too coward to admit that they are heating and too scared of telling you something like this. Nobody wants to be looked at as a bitch.

They will end the relationship with you knowing that you are still in love by telling you that for sure you will be back in the saddle in no time when in fact that is their plan. You will just sit there and hope while they will be to busy with the next one. 

That's how people are and you will feel so frustrated about being accused of exactly what they are doing but there is an important lesson for you to be learned:

Because you have been opened and honest you've been hurt and that's not true. You must be true to yourself and never treat anybody like this because what goes around comes back around. You've been hurt because those persons had their own insecurities and it's easier to think something bad about a good person in order to justify to yourself your actions. 

Don't do to others what others did to you.

Don't do to others what you wouldn't like to be done to you.

Have expectations, they are good, the right person will try to reach those expectations as you will have achievable expectations that will make the other a better person for themselves in the first place and for you as a couple in the second one.

Fall in love with the others' struggles in being a better person for her/him and for you. Support the struggle, achieve the expectations together, that's how love should sound.

5th lesson: forgiveness

You might be wondering why I want to tell you about forgiveness as most of the people go around with a simple approach I forgive or not and that's it. Let me tell you straight forward that's a bad approach. I will try to tell you why is important to forgive, why sometimes is important to forget and some other times to remember in order to learn some valuable lessons.

People are equally good and bad, the only difference is just what they want to give you more. And somehow it seems that it is written in the cells of most of them to offer hate instead of love and the worst of them all to respond to love with hate. Why? nobody knows and each one of them will be convinced that he/she is doing the right thing because otherwise, they couldn't live with themselves.

By the time you will appear into this world and be old enough to read your dad's notes, most probably thing will not change because this is who we are as humans. Important for you is to establish your own values and to try to live by them as much as possible although the surroundings will make it impossible for you.

Politicians will steal and lie because if you choose this career path the ones around you will change you. You might enter naively and with the will to do good among them but very soon you will find out that you are one and if you want to change something you need to play by their rules. The only hope is that generation by generation they will steal and deceive less than the ones before. This doesn't make them necessarily bad persons. They have families and friends that they love and to whom they are really good and nice. Some of them start with the desire to get rich while others with the desire to change things but will both end up doing the same sins. So the second category they are just weak persons who felt in the trap of the big machine and they don't have what it takes to stick to their dreams. You need to understand this and to forgive them but never forget what they are doing.

Along your life, you will have friends that will betray you the second they get a chance, and you will ask why? You need to forgive them and poison your soul because in the first place to start they were not your friends it was just a situation ( school, high school, work, and so on). Never judge yourself too harsh because we all believe in fairytales in a way or another but in real life, shit happens.

Let me tell you a short story about the first girl to whom I said: " I love you". We were teenagers and everything was just like in the movies. She was complaining that her father was a drunk and a cheater and that she thinks that all men (boys at that time) are the same. Guess how it all ended? I was faithful but like every couple (you will see) we had discussions and sometimes things were a drama. We were on a break and she decided to hook up with my oldest childhood friend. Little did I know at that time and although I was feeling betrayed I chose to forgive them both as we were on a break and people have different views on breaks ( I will explain some other time). It was something very short between them, 1 week and 5 kisses and it ended. Regarding my friend I decided to forgive him and to understand he was a jackass, not a friend, and distanced myself. Regarding her I forgave and we got back together believing the old textbook, he didn't mean anything and I realized that I want only you. A few months later without any heads up, she ran to the seaside with some friends and lost her virginity with a fucker in a one night stand. Forgive and forget as at that point It was clear that she didn't love me and it was stupid of me to poison my would with suffering hate for a person that chooses to deceive her in the first place and then me. Exactly what she was scared that somebody will do to her she was doing the others and from what I've heard she continued to have the same lifestyle for the many years that followed. I suffered and I never understood why she chose to act like that towards me but later on in my life I learned and understood that that was her emotional burden not mine and that at the end of the day we are all responsible for our actions and sufferings. At that moment and looking back I might say that she was a bad person while in reality, she had her problems this was the only way she knew how to deal with them. 

You must understand the others, you must understand their real reasons, and only then you will be able to forgive and move on with scars but scars that don't need any fixing from the next person.

People choose to treat poorly other people because it is at hand, it comes natural and they don't have to waste time putting themselves in the other's position. You might say that they are selfish but in fact, they are just choosing the easy way. Don't we all want it easy?

At a certain point in life, I was hanging around with some very bad people for all the wrong reasons. At the same time, I entered in relation with the second girl that heard the magic words from me. The " friends" wanted to fuck me up really bad and they tried to break down the door of the house. My luck, it was a strong door. On the love side, she was cheating me constantly and she was always coming back crying that she made a mistake and she is sorry. It took a while to understand all the shit I got myself involved in but then I realized that it was all about my choices, my mistakes this time. I was to blind to see the reality that was right in front of me. The guys were 3 mentally deranged persons for whom everything was about violence and the signs were there for a long time that they don't like me but i ignored them as we were a big group a conflict would have been possible till I said that I am leaving the country for a while and people distance themselves from me and the occasion appeared for them. Regarding her, what to expect, I should have been attentive at how it all started. :) she was in a relationship with somebody else and she told me after 3 weeks. A person that starts a relationship while they are in another for sure they will try to do the same thing again. I was to blind to see and understand this. Later on, I understood she was scared of loneliness and on top, she was a nymphomaniac. Only when I understood their problems and realized that the signs were there I was able to forgive them and simply don't care anymore. Learned my lessons healed my scars and moved on with the same open heart as the first time. Because you see, it would be stupid to have hate in your heart for people when they are just like they are and it was only your mistake to get close to them. All of them till today are doing the same things so it wasn't something that was done intentionally to me. 

By now you should realize the importance of understanding in the forgiveness process. Very important is that by understanding I am not saying that you need to invent excuses for people's shitty behavior towards you.

As you will get old people will hurt you in different ways, they will disappoint you in different ways.

They will cause exactly what they are doing. Hopefully, you will not be stupid like me and consume yourself at the unfairness of those accusations when you know exactly that they are the ones doing those things to you and you were never able to do it to them. People will put you on hold just because of their uncertainties and this will consume you but you will see that you are stronger than you think. People will make you feel bad because you are honest, they will attack you when you will ask them to be honest. They will judge you by how much money you have not by your soul and you will never be able to change that in those people. And yes they will hurt you in so many ways but forgive them all as we all have our path and you can get there only with a good heart, full of scars but at peace that you always listened to your heart,

Listen to your heart and when you say that you forgive, forgive and forget because if you bring it up again that will only make you a small person with pitty objectives in life. And most important you will hurt another person who believed you forgave them and love is about building not about waiting for the right moment to take revenge.

Strive every day to be good at forgiving.

Fall in love with the thorns so that you can truly love the rose.

Forgive what they've said and done as that's their problem,

Your problems are your actions towards other people and to make sure that you don't become them.