I think that nobody no longer wants the feeling as it's uncertain and besides the greatest joys it can generate the greatest sufferings also, so they turn their heads towards rational thinking. You have some that use it but they no longer value it and therefore they take it easy and honestly i don't think it does any justice to a feeling that is so deep and generates so many wonderful sensations.
A great romanian writter once said " to love means to suffer and how many people run from suffering, few people know how to love" - Emil Cioran.
Most people have one disappointment in love and that's it, I don't minimize the potential trauma, they decide that is better to build an incredible high wall around their soul and they treat everything with reason. People have an incredible fear of feelings worse than any horror movie.
Don't you dare express your feelings in this world as you will be misunderstood and judged for it. Real power of a human being is to love, to express that love and to act in accordance with that love. I remember when i was in a short relationship and she was constantly telling me to open up and be vulnerable, I felt like it and I did so, you can guess what happened next, she disconsidered my feelings the second i opened and she told me I am to weak 🤣🤣🤣 ending our relationship on the reason that i feel to much generally and she believes in reason not feelings. Not confusing at all.
We no longer have relationships as this is a label that nobody wants, it's a too strict term that assumes loyalty and dedication and we are not ready for this so therefore we have situationships. The next time I will be in a situationship and we will meet one of friends I'll introduce her: x she is my situation y. Can you believe the level of lack of assume we have?
You go to a club and you meet a woman and after a few drinks you end up kissing, towards the end of the night as a gentleman you tell her that you like her and you would want to get to know her and that you will not fuck that night, the answer is "ok bye" or " are you serious? Because i want to fuck you now” and a tone of laughs afterwards. You also have a segment which will say that they appreciate because they think about the image they leave but without any intention of seeing you the next few days. This is from my happenings and I am sure that good women find themselves in this type of situations also.
Never make love with with a person that wanted you for a night.
I am a firm believer that sex is awesome and it becomes a pleasant experience when you have a connection. Not to say after you fall in love and you can't get enough of that person, that's when the magic happens. Sex is something fantastic but it needs a connection, trust and feelings in order to be fantastic. And we reach the same point, people are affraid of feelings so they decide to reduce themselves to the animal level (I am offending the animals here) and they have meaningless sex as a sport hiding behind the line " I have needs". So fucking sad to fuck just to fuck.
At a certain point in life I was going through a heart breaking period after a break up and I was constantly thinking about her and trying to find ways to get in touch with her and talk and get back together. I relied on some of my friends to listen to me and maybe calm my soul somehow, they simply couldn't understand me as they were applying 100% reason to everything I was expressing from my heart. I think it's sad that we all gave up on encouraging the hearts and we talk only mind to mind and not soul to soul. I understood their approach as you see people nowadays when they have see other people who follow their hearts it's strange, this is not something that you see too much nowdays.
I said many times before and i cannot stress this enough people no longer have empathy, no longer listen. If you dare tell somebody how you felt in a certain situation they will make it about them and transform it in a conflict or they will throw all the stones in their pocket at you saying that you have unhealed trauma. If you are honestly giving some compliments or express your feelings they will say it's bullshit. If you talk people no longer listen with their heart but with their mind and while you are talking in fact they imagine what you are saying and they are preparing their answer. People no longer apologize for their disrespect or wrongful doing and they preffer to say that you have issues. It's easier to run from our own feelings and look deep inside, we embrace the I am healed and self love attitude as it is imposed to admit us with us that we have been a shitty person in some situations.
It blows my mind the so many ways in which people are running away from their own feelings and therefore they also don't offer.
We don't communicate, we don't try, we just cheat or go away and we sell ourselves lies that we are good people instead of admiting the mistake and trying to be better next time. Very fast we will find somebody else and we will repeat the same cycle on and on till we will realize that what we really need in this life is the feelings.
Honestly I am full of scars and I would have been entitled to close and not show any feeling of any kind but I constantly make a conscious decision to believe in my heart and to respect what she feels. For sure I am not perfect and i fall victim to my own fears but i am constantly trying to keep the heart open and to listen it.
Respect the feeling dear people, let it fil your body with all the amazing reactions, stop living in reason. I don't say to ignore all form of reason but find your own ballance between the two and live, live with passion. Buy flowers, say i love you, be happy, make plans, have fights, be sad, be disability get back together, forgive and love harder, break up, wait a short wile (if you didn't consume your grieving while being there) that find somebody else with more feeling. Never betray your heart, she cannot handle disappointment from you, she'll always survives disappointment from others.
The universe loves a stubborn heart.
I still believe in love and I run towards it with all my courage and all my fears. Give your all and always try harder as you have huge walls in front of other hearts that need breaking. I still believe in the goodness of the heart of so many people and the barriers of their mind-reason and their ego.
You are always one step away from a great love or a great disappointment, have the courage to take that step.
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